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Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Go To Hell ♥ 5:12 AM

Time-Check: Tuesday, 1st Sept, 9.13pm.

Today Was Going Great Till It Hit A Bump. Ohh, Fcuk That Shit. Im Just Happy Everything With Prass's Room Is 97% Done. Just Abit Touch Up Here & There. & Wooweee, Making Murruku Is So Much Fun!

So As I Was Walking Back, I Did Some Thinking.
Kinda Wierd How One's Life Could Be So Awesome & You Have That One Fcuken Shit To Ruin It All...

Im Not Really In The Mood. Really Fcuked Up.It's Never Hard To Make Me Happy. I Just Can't Believe Anyone Could Fail So Terribly In That. Take Care Ya'll.

All I Know Is I Miss 'Him' More Than Anything. If I Had Just One Wish, I Wish I Could Go Back To 2005, & Spend One Whole Day With 'Him'. & That One Last Hug Itself Would Mean The World To Me. I Have Never Missed Anyone This Much. & The One Thing I Could Never Forgive Myself For Would Be Letting 'Him' Go. I Just Want You Back So Bad That Im Living This Shit Life Over & Over Again. Pls Come Back.. Pls

Peace & Love.

'Umaaa!

Labels: If You Really Love Me..

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Just gets better ♥ 3:41 AM

Time-Check: Sunday, 30th Aug, 10.40pm.

Today, Something Struck Me. How Wonderful Love Is~

It Was Like We Met For The Very First Time. I Could Feel My Heart Beat Faster & Slower At The Same Time.

God, Im Just Falling Deeep. & I Just Wish You Knew How I Felt. But Im Not Going To Rush This. Im Gonna Take Slow Steps At A Time. Yea, Yea.. That's What I Always Say.

Vaamanan- Aedho Saigirai

Aedho Saigirai, Ennai Aedho Saigirai,
Ennai Ennidum Nee Arimugam Saigirai.

Unnodhu Paesinaal, Ullnenjil Minnal Thondrudai.
Kannaadhi Paarkayil, En Kangal Unnai Kaathudai.

Pennae Ithu Kanava Neejama, Unnai Kaetkindran.

Anbaeee, Intha Nimidam Nenjukkul Irrukiradae.
Adadaaa, Ithu Naerukukum Marukumai Irrukirudae.
Unaaal, Intha Ulagam Yavumai Pudithaai Thaerigiradae.

Pennae Yendan Kaadigaaram, Enthan Paechai Katkavillai.
Unnai Kangal Nodiyodhu Nindradadi Odavillai.

Ithuvarai Yaaridamum Ennanadhu Saayavillai.
Enna Oru Maayam Seithaai, Ennidathil Naanum illai.

Enna Ithu Enna Ithu..
Ennai Alai Kaanavillai.
Unthan Pinbu VanThadadi,
Innum Athu Thirumbavillai.

Engae Endru Kaethaen, Unn Kaaladi Kaathudadi..

Anbaeee, Intha Nimidam Nenjukkul Irrukiradae.
Adadaaa, Ithu Naerukuku Marukumai Irrukirudae.
Unaaal, Intha Ulagam Yavumai Pudithaai Thaerigiradae.

Kaadhal Nenjam Paesikolla Vaarthai Ethum Thaevaillai.
Manathil Ulla Aasai Sollaa, Mounam Polla Molli Illai.

Indruvarai En Uyirai, Ippadi Naan Valndathillai.
Putham Pudhu Thotram Ithu, Vaeru Thuvum Thondravillai.

Naetruvarai Vallnilaiyil, Entha Oru Maatram Illai.
Indru Enthan Vaasalodhu, Kandhukondaen Vaanavillai.

Orai Oru Naalil, Mullu Vazhai Vaalndanae..

Anbaeee, Intha Nimidam Nenjukkul Irrukiradae.
Adadaaa, Ithu Naerukuku Marukumai Irrukirudae.
Unaaal, Intha Ulagam Yavumai Pudithaai Thaerigiradae.

Aedho Saigirai, Ennai Aedho Saigirai,
Ennai Unnidum Nee Arimugam Saigirai.

Ahh! Im Just Madly In Love With The Song. & I Can't Help But Smile Everytime I Hear It.

Sometimes, It Feels Like A Dream. A Dream That Im Just Too Afraid To Wake Up From. Everything About You Makes Me Helpless To Avoid. & It's Like My Mind Snapped A Picture Of You, It Just Wouldn't Leave My Head. I Keep Thinking About You No Matter The Countless Times I Remind Myself Not To. You Got Me Asking What You've Done To Me. Even With The Ground So Strong, I Feel Like Im Flying High Up In The Sky. The Path's Clear But Im Getting Lost Into You. & Look At Me, Sitting Here Typing All This Out. It's Like Im Crazy In Love.
When I Hug You, I Wish, I Never Have To Let Go. When I Kiss You, I'll Start Blushing Like It Was The First Time We Ever Kissed. When You Hold My Hand, There's This Feeling That Rushes Through My Soul & I Just Want To Hold Tighter. When I Lay On Your Chest, I Could Just Forget Everything That's Happening, Cause I Know That's The Saffest Place On Earth. When It's Time To Part, I Like How You'll Run Back & Hug Me Just To Tell Me Once Again You Love Me. When We Go For A Walk, I Like How We'll Walk Very Slow, Just To Drag The Time. When You Look At Me, I Like How You'll Turn Away Cause You Don't Want Me To Know You've Been Admiring Me All Along. When Im Not In The Right State Of Mind, I Like How You Care & Treat Me Like A Baby, Pampering Me Throughout The Day. I Could Go On & On..

But All This Could Sum Up To Just One Sentence, I Love You Beyond What Words Could Describe. Thanks For Making Me Feel Special. =)

Alright, Enough Of That. Im Going To Go Catch IronMan! Take Care Ya'll. Byee.

Peace & Love.

'Umaaaa!

*As Time Goes By, If Your Love Is True, You'll Know For Sure Im The Only One For You. Some Things Just Never Change. Some People Just Need A Break. But In The End, They'll End Up Together Again.

Labels: Once In A While Right In The Middle Of Life Love Gives Us A Fairytale.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

In Your Arms. ♥ 3:19 AM

Time-Check: Thursday, 27th Aug, 7.13pm.

Woohoo! End Of The Month Is Nearing And That Means...
ALLOWANCE! Plus Mum's Gonna Add Some Extra Cash Since It's My Turn To Go Shopping! Can't Wait.

School's Getting Better Now. Not Too Exhausting. & It's More Fun Cause The Class Is Starting To Bond Better. & We're Really Getting Loud! & Seriously, I Find It ANNOYING When People Call Me Mages. Grr! Well, This Boy Does & It Gets Onto My Nerves. Plus, I Got To Finish My Art Final A.S.A.P!

& Lately I've Been Having So Much Of Work To Do! I'm Trying To Schedule My Time Wisely But I Keep Ending Up Getting Stuck. Haiz. But Oh Well, On Tues Watched The Proposal With The Girls(Total Last Min Thing). Omg Lah! That Movie Cracked Me Up Almost Throughout The Movie. I Literally Laughed Till My Stomach Hurt So Much! Now I Just Can't Wait For Them To Release FD4. I So Wanna Watch It.

& Prassanna!!! I'm Gonna Kill You. If You Want To Have More Than One Laus, You Have To Have One Only! Loyal Okay! Lols! Look Who's Talking. :D *Inside Joke*

Talking About Laus, Kumares, Good Job With CT3! I'm So Proud Of You. That Boy Actually Studied. & Only One Day Before His Maths Exam I Taught Him Trigo & He Can Still Ans Me Anything I Ask Him. Good Good. I'm Proud! At Least Someone Benefited From My Teachings.

& Damm! Im Misssss A Lot Of People! I Miss Lavania Like So Bloody Much! It's Been Ages Since I Last Saw Her. I Can't Wait For O's To End. & I Can't Wait For Ounam At Prass's House. We Know Why Ah Prass. Hahaha!

Ok, I Got Lots Of Work To Do. Eh Bitch, I Blog Ready. Happy Not? HAHA! If The Person Know Who HE Is, Can Ready. Lols. Take Care Ya'll. :D

Peace & Love.

'Umaaa!

Labels: It's Annoying How Badly I Miss You Each Day.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

I've Teared Enough. ♥ 6:24 AM

Time-Check: Thurs, 20th Aug, 10.34pm.

Grr, Prelim Results Were Atrocious! But I Am Not Going To Get Disheartened.
I Am Going To Work Hard For O's. Looking On The Bright Side, I Don't Have To Study On My Own. Teachers Will Call Me Back & Drill Me. Lols!

So There's A Lot Going In My Mind Lately. & When I Say A Lot, I Mean Like So MUCH!
I Kinda Despise It Cause It's Really Affecting My Concentration Every Single Day. What's Affecting Me More Is That I Really Don't Know Who To Talk It Out With. & Even If I Have My Options, I Don't Know Where To Start, What To Say, What Not To. What's More Annoying Is, These Days, You Can Hardly Trust Anybody.

I Remember When My First Crush Strucked Me. Aged 5, Did I Even Know What I Was Thinking? I Recall Us Telling Each Other We Would Never Leave Each Other. Today, I Don't Even Know If He Still Exist..
Then I Remember My Next Crush. Used To Go Crazy Everytime My Eyes Met Him. I'll Get This Stupid Feeling & I Can Hear My That-Time-Current Fav Song Playing In My Head. Again I Told Myself, No Way Am I Going To Let This Go. Guess What, Went Straight Into The Drains!
& Then It Happened Again. This Time I Confused Pity With Love. I Had My First Dance With A Guy. Used To Find It So Magical To Be Around Him. He Could Make Me Smile With Everything He Said. Then I Realised, Wasn't Worth My Time. But Never Forgotten Him Till Today. But Nope, No Feelings Or Love Or What-So-Ever. Just Hope He's Doing Fine.
& Then Came The Amazing One. One Of The Best I've Ever Had. Lasted More Longer Than I Ever Thought It Would. How I Could Be Myself With Him & It Was Easy For Him To Conquer My Mind. & I Never Forgot Anything We Had. First Kiss, Movie, Place We Met, Everywhere We Went, Etc. Everything Was Just So Awesome. Just Too Good To Be True. & I Remember All The Bear Hugs, Times Where I Literally Never Wanted To Let Go. Times When I Was Too Afraid To Let Go. I Could Never Stop Smiling At The Fact Of Every Happenings. But You Know How Good Things End Real Quick? Lols. Life's Just Too Complicated To Understand Sometimes. I've Been Through This Before. & Every Single Time, I Just Keep Making The Same Mistake. & For Once When I Want To Make The Right Move, People Don't Let Me. Isn't It My Life, Don't I Have The Right To Decide?

I Bet When Every Girl Was Little, She Would Imagine How The Perfect Guy Should Be. You Know What Would Crush A Girl Most, To Know She Made The Wrong Choice. When She Forsees Herself At Court Fighting To Just Separate From The One She Thought She Loved Most..
& I Am Just So Afraid I'll End Up There. I Remember My Mum Always Saying, "It's Never To Late For Anything. If You Feel He Ain't Right, You Got To End It Early. I Never Want To See You Get Hurt".

I Never Wanted To Lose Those Feelings. But As Days Goes By, I Just Had No Choice. Everything Changed So Much And All I Felt Was That I Was Cheating Myself. It Hurts, But You Just Got To Learn It The Hard Way Sometimes.

I Just Want A Big Break From It All. No More Butterflies, No More Mushy Feelings. No More Lovey-Dovey Stuff. Been Hurt For Long Enough. Right Now, I Just Want To Chill With Some Good Friends, Study Hard, & Get Into A Promising Career. & Then Maybe I Can Think About All This.

I Guess This Got Too Long. I Am Going To Take A Shower. What?! Do You How Freaking Hot The Weather Is? Goodbye Readers. Take Care.

Peace & Love!

'Umaaaaa!

p.s. & I Remember, As I Grew, I Had Tiny Expectations For The Guy I Wanted To Be With In The Future Nicely Bottled & Kept Safely In My Heart. It's Sad To Know, You'll Actually Go To The Extend Of Ripping My Heart Apart To Know The Ans & Be This Guy I Imagined Just To Be With Me. But Baby, By Then, Im Long Gone. .. Go Figure!

Labels: Let's Take It Slow. Why The Rush?

Monday, August 10, 2009

Awaiting Our Next Meet. ♥ 9:06 PM

Time-Check: Tuesday, 11th Aug, 1.47pm.

Let Me Start By Saying, PRELIMS SUCKED BIGTIME!
What Were The Teachers Thinking When They Were Setting The Paper. Oh C'mon!
Teachers Seriously Treat Prelims As Their Sweet Revenge. Sheesh.

So Today & Tomorrow Are Marking Days So There's No School. *Sad Face*. Well, Im Not Doing Anything Productive At Home So I'll Really Prefer Going To School. Plus, I Miss All My School Lovelies. =)

& Seriously, Everyone Around Me Is Going Through Some Kind Of Problem. Some Scary Shit. I Just Hope Everything Goes Fine For Them. & Im Sorry If I Can't Help Much. Im Trying My Best. & I Swear It Hurt Me To See You As Such. But I Just Didn't Want You To Feel Worst. I Just Had To Leave. Darling, You Know I Love You. Everything's Going To Be Fine Soon.

So Everyone's Asking Me Why Have I Been All Bloomy Lately. What Can I Say, Im Just Living Life. Lols! Neh, Not Really. But You Really Didn't Believe Me When I Said You're The Only Thing That Pulls Life Down. Go Figure!

I Got Lots To Blog But, Im Just Too Lazy. Im Going To Clean My Room. Take Care Ya'll.

Peace & Love.

'Umaaaa!

Labels: I Miss You More Than Anything.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

You Make Me Fly. ♥ 11:32 PM

Time-Check: Sunday. 26th July, 3.33pm.

All Day I Had This Gut Feeling Something Was Going To Happen. I Walked Out Of School & There You Were, Racing Towards Me. I've Never Seen Anyone Move That Fast. My Heart Was Loud Enough For You Could Hear The Beats If You Were By My Side. Within Secs, I Felt A Blow Across My Face & I Banged Into Something Hard That Dragged Me Metres Away. I Didn't Even Have Time To Explain Anything. Screams, & The Smell Of Blood Oozing Everywhere Were All I Could Think About. I Blinked, & There You Were Again, Tears In Your Eyes, Saying You Were Sorry. You Just Couldn't Help It. With The Last Bits Of Strength I Had, I Told You, "You'll Pay For This".

Tell Me Which Human In The Right State Of Mind Would Fall Back Asleep After Having Such A Scene Running Through Their Eyes. Damm, It's A Freaking Sunday Morning Lah Dey! Give Me A Break.

So It's Been A Week Since I Last Blogged. Of Course A Lot Of Things Happened. Mainly Three Things. Prass Suprise B'dae! RHD'09, Which Sucked BIGTIME! Actually Not Really, Just That It Was Utterly Boring This Year Cause All You Do Is Walk Around In Your Ethnic Suits. OhOh, The Other Big Thing Is That I Got Another Suprise For My B'dae. Which Is Already Almost One Mth Old. Lols!

So Prass's B'dae Was Stressing Me Out Like Crazy. I Had To Even Try My Best To Avoid Her Just So I Don't Splurt Out The Suprise. So I Am Sorry For That Darling. Plus, I Had Called Many People. But They Were All Having School. So I Had No Choice But To Keep It Within School People. My Sweetheart Is A Exception Luh. & The Boys Were Being Jerks Luh. Tell Me Why They So Shy Again. Wierd. But Who Cares. We Still Had Fun & I Hope Prass Did. & I Also Hope She Likes Her Cake & Her Suprise & Her Present! & Thanks Bruno! Even Though You Had School Till Late, & You Were So Shagged, You Still Managed To Come. Sooo Sweet Of You! & Yup, For Your Angel Sis! Lols!

Then RHD! Really Funny Coz Chan Was Drooling At Her Lau All The Way. Lols! Cause He Was Wearing Purple. Lols! & I Kept Making Fun Of Her. & Then Nothing Much. Just The Normal Photo-Taking. But MT Was Fun. After Riyadz & Sangita Had Their Listening Practices. Chan & Me Whn In & Started Making A Lot Of Noise & Taking A Lot Of Pics. Then We Were Crapping With Subha & Bitching With Her About Any New Hot Stories In School. Lols. Then Once It Was Sec Period, We Went Over To The Next Class(3NT Tamil), Borrowed Kumz To Tke Pic. Stupid Other Boys Charbot. I Wonder Why Kumz Didn't. Hmms.. Then Chan Was Taking Stupid Pics Of Him. Lols! Then She Talk Talk With Him While I Went Back To Our Class And Started Crapping With Subha Again. After School, Nothing Much. Go Have Lunch. Go ChitChat With Prass & Chan Then Head Home.

Okay, So My Suprise B'dae, Was Really SUPRISING! C'mon, Almost One Mth Since It Ended. & I Knew Nothing About It. So Unexpected! & I Really Really Loved It. Thanks So Much Girls. & Boys, Who Contributed Money All. Sooo Sweet! & Thanks For The Pen Kumz! So Thoughtful Of You. Oh, He Bought Me A Pen In A Way Of Saying Good Luck For My Exams. & Thanks For The Chocolaate Prass! It's Soooooo Niceee! & For The C&K Bag Umz. Sooo Sweet Lah! I Love Everything. The Popcorn, The Cake & The Pizza Even If I Didn't Eat. Your'll Really Made My Day.

& Yest, Followed Prass To Bugis. She Wanted To Collect Things For Her Lau & GodBro. So Nice To Catch Up With Her After A Long Time! & Thanksssss For The Advices. I Love You Darling!

So That's About It. Im Gonna Go Study Abit. Prelims Started. Wooo! ALL THE BEST FOR EVERYONE WHO'S TAKING PRELIMS!

Take Care Ya'll.

Peace & Love!

'Umaaaa!

Labels: SomeBody Get Those Butterflies Out Of My Stomach.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Prass's Kutty's B'daee! ♥ 8:33 AM

Okay, This Is A Special One! 19th July 2008. 12.00am!

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY MY ONE & ONLY DARLING PRASSANNA D/O SATHISH!!!

Thanks for always being there for me through thick & thin. Though you are two years younger than me, I never really felt the age gap between us. You've beeen a very AWESOME SIS! & I dearly thank you for everything. I hope you have the most memorable birthday in your life filled with tonns of wishes & presents. May you be blessed always. All the very best for your upcoming exams. Im sure you'll do well darling. Take care of your health. Don't fall sick often so that I can see you in school! Hope we never lose contact in life. & Definitely will i not let ANY bitch spoil the bond between us. So Don't you worry about all that kays. Don't worry about the past. Remember that everything happens for a reason & move on. Don't care about what others say. just follow your heart. Don't let ANYONE BRING YOU DOWN! If you need help in ANYTHING, just feel free to ask me. Im More Than Welcomed To Help. I Love You AlotAlotAlotAlot. & Lastly, may you succeed in everything you do! Take Care PrettyCuteLovable One! You're My One & Only Darling! Have a Gd Night! Sleep Well! May you have the sweetest dream!

Just Never Ever Feel That You're Alone. Cause Im Just A Ring Away Precious!

'Umaaaaa!

Labels: All Purple Just For You. Except My Name.